My first post!!

AAAAAAAAAA!! Okay, so I'm a bit of a perfectionist, and I keep trying to do this and then fucking it up by not continuing with it so I think I'm gonna just try and spill all of my brain out and hope that that gets rid of it?
???
Hopefully that works?
Okay so quick intro into me, I'm 20, I'm an ice hockey player for my univeristy. I don't know if I can really call it my university, I'm still a student, but I'm on a year out at the moment because I am super duper depressed, and I have until October to get well enough to continue my stuides.
But how do I even get better? I don't know.
I... yeah, I dunno.
I think I need to bring back joy and play to my life. I find it really difficult to enjoy anything, or at least I have been for the last couple of years, like, when I play hockey, I always feel like shit about myself, and when I sing I only hear the flaws, and I think I need to start doing things for fun and enjoying things, not letting mistakes ruin my mood and opinion of myself.
I dunno. I figured this would be a nice place to start. Just blurting everything out with no pressure. No one in my life knows about it, so no one can read it and judge me. It's just me, looking at myself in the mirror, and making a change.

From YKN
06/04/2026